Gosh, I wonder if I’ll come to regret this pinkiness in time? I suppose others will for me. Poor others!
The life stories shared by my senior pastor at the Sunset Gospel Bible Fellowship (links to notes and MP3s) have truly been altering, even shattering, experiences. I can feel a fiery-ness being stoked from within — is it time to wake up? I don’t want any other voice but His in my head, really, and let me tell you I do have sticky Wormtongues squirming around my noodle. I have had. Grab ’em and toss ’em away.
The morning sermon was of the wakey-wakey nature too — “Let your conversation be without covetousness (the rebuke); and be content with such things as ye have (the counsel): for he hath said, I will never leave thee, nor forsake thee (the encouragement!)” (Hebrews 13:5). Not to lay anything on anyone other than myself, I have too often been seized by dem urges, desires, whatnot, to own, to possess, to have and to hold, then to forget and use not for good or nuts all, actually. Stupid, slow, scary grrl. I feel freed.
Freed also in other senses in my life — some of which I shall keep to myself, of course, cheh. I don’t want to be haunted by the same failed or fulfilled hopes as too many of my gender and generation.
My fundamental fundamental fundamental worry in life is my family. Or have I said this before? Aiyah, the auntie within.
Oh yah, and apparently “ye” refers to the plural and “thee” refers to the singular, so “I will never leave thee, nor forsake thee” … is a most intimate message from Him to you. What did I tell you? Freed.